not dat dsperate la kn..

urm..ok skrg ni pkul 2.30 pagi...x ley tdo, myb sbb da tdo jap tdi...huu..my point here is, i hate wat is in my mind rite now, keep rewind d same thing...i feel lonely..i realy need a place to lay off..umah bangi mmg x bole la kn, mke my head bcome more serabut, umah s.alam? hah kem salam je la...x taw la nape lately rse cmni...i try nk bwang feeling ni jaoh2 dr idup, bt rite now, i cant, rse cm nk nanges...realy...sumtym i bcome moody easily, n i hate dat..mkin lme idup, mkin confuse ngan diri ni...i need sum1 to hug me n say"evrything will b ok nadirah, just wait ok?" i realy2 want dat situation rite now..i cant do this alone..*sigh*..lately ni gk, x taw nape ble nmpk dy je, rse mcm nk marah je...i knw bdose, bt, perasaan ni dtg secare ttbe, cmne nk bwat dy g jaoh2? i want to feel, how 2 b normal, tlg la bg mse tuh la skjap je pown jdi la..i really2 need it...pnat pretend dat evrything is ok, to mke a gud impression 2ward those whose seeing it..2ward those who already hurt my feeling..urgh...i feel sick+tired+moody==tension..knw wat, dlu2 when dis feeling came, dat person always calm me down..i mish dat situation..sumtyms, sy jdi cpt pelupe, cpt marah, pas2 ble da calm, i 4got wat im mad for..n hard to tell to sum1 y i mad for..can dis cause by hypertension? tension gle2 tahap gaban, byk masalah n pndam je, bole ke dy effect brain kte?ataupown ni adlh salah satu proses of growing up?kdg2 rse mcm mls nk mke new frens(old frens tells me dat im peramah hohoho), mcm x d perasaan terhadap pape pown d gk, ske bwat adek nanges(evryday gadow, hohoho), mls nk lyn org gk..its lyk i preffer to live in my own life, n dat life is at my own brain..pemalas...pnatnye...adoi...mercy plz..

result????

ok my bday da lpas..nothing special, bt i realy2 appreciate to those yg wish, thru fb, sms, card, phone call! huu yg plg2 terharu----nadia klasmate sy bwat bday kad senirik utk sy, cantik! thanx cyg!--my adek ltak present bwh bntal sy, n x sdar d present tuh smpai la dy kte d sumthing bwh bantal,huuu!--has bwat sort of multimedia kad kt fb!cantik jge!--thanx byk2!! wuuu...skrg pe y plg penting, result exam kuar pkul 10 mlm ni! wuuu mmg x logik tol la uitm ni, bwat result kuar mlm..agk cuak ye disitu...mn x nye, paper power ngan cct ari2 mcm pe je jwb...same ngan ntah..tp paper power plg terok la, ngan d sokln yg pkai jwb, mcm x taw pape!damn! hopefully x repeat, wuuuu pnat la repeat2 ni, nex sem pown berat je crdit hour...aiyo2...Ya Allah, mnx2 la result ok...fuh2..huuuu,,hurm since blik umah ni, mcm2 happen..tuh senarnye sy x ske sgt blik bangi..huuu its btter being alone rather than blik bangi, bt they r my family no matter wat happen, family comes first, so try la bwat bodo ngan pape yg blaku, tp kdg2 x tahan tlpas gk...taw la bdose, tp x taw da nk wat cmne..dr tahan je perasaan tuh, n bwat mke masam, ble da lpas, criusly rse lege sket, x d bwat mke masam2..hohohoho...im glad tym my bday, dpt gayut2 tpon ngan my deary qin...mish dy gle2! lame gk gayut, dkat nk 2 jam, kowt? (thanx 2 d free call!ahkz) byk kteorg share cte, abt each others life..talking to her is like talking to myself, n d advice cn mke me feel realy2 calm...she is like my twin, watver im going through, she's in d same situation,..wuuuuu...nk pelok2 n cium2 QIn gdik ni...wuuuu (nadirah, tlg cntrl diri yer,heh)..haha..my work at my dad office alredy done, so bole relax2 sket!yay! njoy! daaa~~~

Raya Korban 2009 heee

fuh, da lame gle kot x memblog nieh...byk stori, tp cte sket da la yer..strt from raya korban..dis yr as usual blik kg melake clbrate raye memndgkn kg tuh je yg available skrg..huuu..papa bli lembu korban utk kteorg adek bearadek..at 1st, papa nk bwat utk mama ngan papa je, last2 x taw la cmne bole tuka..thanx papa...muahx! sape yg sembelih??jeng2..atok sy dan pak tam sy...hehehe...atok sy imam kg, pak tam sy bilal kg, so dyorg je yg sembelih...solat raya pown mmg atok je yg slalu imam kn kt surau..(n nme lorong kg sy Jln Imam Haji Abdullah!-name atok sy- agk bangge gk la ble bce nme lorong tuh bru2 ni...huu jakun gle)..nieh gmba2 lmbu kteorg kne korban :

                                                         

                                         lpas kne korban, keje2 bwang kulit

                                                     

                                           beberape minit lpas sembelih

then, bwat ry korban sy best sbb d sorng bdak kcik nih, anak pak busu sy..lyan je dy,,naseb baek la dy jenis yg mcm x kesa ngan org..tp tym dy kcik2 dlu x nk ngan org lak, nk ngan laki je..gatal kn?? (hehehe), tp ble dy da bsar sket n d adek bru, bru la dy nk kt smorg..nme dy Dania(x igt nme pnoh sbb pjg sgt!), n umur dy 3 thn..bdak ni cm bijak je..sket2 tanye2..sy bwk dy g tgk lembu sembelih, tp x dkat2 la, jaoh2 sket sbb sy x bole tgk darah, agipown bdak kcik kn..x elok2..huuu tym org2 tgh sembelih tuh, mcm2 karenah dy.."kakak, lmbu tuh pengsan ke?ble dy nk bgn?", "kakak, lembu tu kentut la..(pas2 dy glak2)..", "kakak, adek nk tgkp gmba lmbu tuh bole?"..n mcm2 agi la...sy pown lyn je...da x wat pape..hehehe..then, yg x bole lpe tym sy buai dy kt buaian bwh umah kt kg(dy suro buai, aci x??huu) then dy nyanyi lgu pe punye bhs tah, pas2 dy ubah2 suai lgu tuh pas2 dy glak2...(klka gk la dy ubah suai lgu tuh, sy pown ikt gelak je..hehe)..then, Dania ni mmg ske tgkp gmba, posing2 la, pas2 klaw dy tgk gmba tuh mcm x lawa, dy mnx tgkp gmba laen..isk2..bdak nieh...hehhe..then ble dy nk blik da(g kg dy yg 1 ag, kt melake gk), dy ddk je dlm kete, x nk kuar salam2 ngan org...isk rse cm nk cubit2 je bdak ni...heh..(pak busu ckp, dy ske ddk dlm kete)..hehe..hopefully pasni ble blik kg n dy ad, dy igt agi la kt family kteorg, almaklumla kteorg jrg2 blik kg..huuu..nih gmba2 dy n gmba kteorg ngan dy..::

                                      

                tmpat nieh dy yg pilih..klaw x, x nk tgkp gmba..gdik x??

                                      

                                  gmba gdik Dania agi..

                                       

                                   tuh 'peace' Dania..

blik melake, x lpas pluang gk g jln2 kt bnda hilir(as usual hehehe)...g jonker walk..rmai gle org kowt!jln mcm x jln je..tp byk gk brg best2 dy jual! (naseb baek x d duet tym nieh, mau abes gk duet kt c2) then pusing2 melake, byk gk da berubah melake ni..wuuu.. k la endz..

                

MJ..This Is It.. ^_^

okeh, now sy d penyakit perasaan, rse nk cmpk hp jap bole x??i try to put dis feeling, awaaaayyyyy from me, bt it seems mcm x bole..argh bnci tol! smalam g tgk mvie, This Is It,,not bad gk...its abt the rehearsal of This Is Is concert that supposed to be held on July 2009...tp x smpatkn sbb MJ da x d...n d concert is d last concert for him(if dy alive agi la)...mmg gmpk gle la dy nye rehearsal..(even cm blatih je pown, tp dy cm taw2 je dy x bwat konsert tuh...sbb dy nyanyi tym blatih tuh mcm btol2 dy nyanyi tok konsert tuh nnti...n sape beli tiket konsert dy mmg x rugi if konsert tuh btol2 jdi....n d 1 gurl maen bass,,fuuhh hebat gle! mcm dy lead bass,,ngan dancer mntap2 n backup singer...n sme bkan familiar person..sme org2 bru..(x lah sme sgt)..for backup dancer, ade audition di klgn org bese2 kowt n rmai gle yg g...tp mmg syg la kn, x smpt nk bwat...n dat mvie tuh dr personal video MJ senirik..dy suro org rkamkn tym dy blatih(kowt la..hahhaha)....sy bkan minat MJ sgt, bt sgt teruje ble tgk cte tuh...rse sediyh pown d gk sbb dy da blatih pnat2 kn...n im curious, is he muslim or kristian??? sbbnye d 1 scene tuh dy pkai kot d tande cross, n kdg2 pown dy mcm bwat tande cross..huu..itu kte x taw...bt 4 sure, i luv their choreography(mmg MJ bwat senirik), effect, music, realy2 SUPERB!! n MJ is a nice guy(x taw la if dlm tuh je kn hohoho) sbb ble dy mnx sum1 tlg sumthing or tuka pape music ke ape ke kn, msti dy ckp 'god bless u'..mcm soft spoken je dy tuh.. =p at least, when im watching dis mvie, x d la tpikir sgt psl perasaan2 nih...pnat la..asek saket hati psl bnd yg same n i can do nothing n its frustrating!huuuuuu....peminat MJ, g tgk This Is It! n im repeat, im nt his biggest fan bt i adore dis mvie...!klaw g btol2 konsert dy nieh, msti lgi gmpak kowttt... heeeee daa~~

oh blog! klaw ko bnde idup aku rse cm nk pelok2 n cium2 je ko...huuu i feel hurt,,really, n i dunno how to mke it go away..i wish i never knew them..oh guyz..nape slalu kne bnde yg same??rse tkilan la,wanna kill them...!! huuu..sori, luahan perasaan agi...huuu pnatlah asek kne cmni je

gimik je..jgn tertipu!hahahaha

oh blog, aku slalu tulis tym aku rse cm nk je kn???hehehe sian ko..hurm..aku juz nk btaw yg dr hari jumaat arituh smpai la ari ni rse mcm byk gle mkn! mkn sehari mau dkat rm 30 kowt..(criusly sgt byk!) n i think sbb nk period da kowt..sppsd dy dtg da tp x dtg2 agi...hurm..dgn ke'tensi'nan yg melanda..aish...im afraid nnti teros2 cmni abes la gmok..aiya...hehehehe..skrg ni byk bnd yg tgh bmaen dlm kepale....nape la org ske pndg rendah kt org laen?????n nape la dy igt dy la bole jdi ketue sme??ko igt ko tuh sape?? dh la hipokrit nk mati..dpan laki bwat mke baek..aish...nape la org cmni wujud??bwat saket ati je..klaw ko slalu bwat cmni nnti mmg ko akn kne ngan aku..n aku takowt gk aku tlpas..tgh try control nieh...org laen igt aku ikt je ckp ko gk n x berani nk wat pape???korg mmg totaly salah..aku x nk lpas sbb aku pkir org sekeliling dy je..n da la aku slalu nmpk ko...ksian kwn ko yg agi sorg..tpakse menahan perasaan je ble ko bwat mcm2 kt dy...aiyo, klaw aku jdi kwn ko tuh, mmg da lame aku bg tampar2 je kt mke ko..hurm..ko nieh mmberatkn kepale aku je..ngan test agi...mcm bagoz!

p/s= post nieh x d kne mengena sama ada yg hidup ataupown yg tlh meninggal dunie..ia dipetik dr sebuah cerpen..skian terimas! ^_^

Praying..Hoping..

going out wit fren sumtym can mke us feel better after having a hard situation...when im out wit yana n nadia, im escaping from my real lyf 4 a while.. glak2 mcm org x pna glak sethn(ye lah da lame x glak2 cm2 ngan kwn2, last pown if im not mistaken during f4 n f5)...now im facing a hard situation..which i had to b strong so i wont pass a wrong path..alhamdulillah, stakat nieh ok lagi la...hurm..ngan report yg byk yg perlu diselesaikan secept mungkin(mini projek x msuk dlm pspice agi n kne hnta nex week!terok kn?)aish..every week d test...cpt la abes sem 3 nieh...berat kepale...ngan klas pack gle..ngan my other problem..im pity wit my kaklong..she want to continue her studies, n today is a 2nd day she's at nilai college..n she facing a financial problem..she dun hv any idea to pay a fee..(at 1st my dad said he will help, now, refering to my family condition, she's reluctant to continue her study..)..she's trying to find a loan or a scholar such as ptptn n mara..hopefully she get it..n i pray she can continue her study without any obstacle..n fully hope dat our financial problem done as soon as possible..n im thank to Allah to gve me an opportunity to further my study easily..(currently im ptptn holders, n using it wisely so im nt facing a shortage)..huu.. ah, n arol, we decide, we will nt contacting each other again, mayb till 4ever...pray he always fine... n for d readers, plz pray for me too, dat i can get thru any kind of obstacle...Ya Allah, kuatkan la semangat ku untuk menghadapi hari-hari mu yg seterusnya...Amin..

exhausted aka penat!

raya is over 4 me!assgmnt+ report blmbak x disiapkn lagi..test berderet2 x study agi...aish...act, i try to cheer myself back...2day, we decided we will nt 2 cntct each other again...n i think dat is d best way, yelah dy da d gf, so if sy x d pown x pe kn?agipown they r suitable 4 each other..me? we r juz lyk langit dan bumi, 2 totally diffrnt ppl, 2 diffrnt lyfstyle n 2 diff minded...he?he had a wonderful gf(i assume, based on pic) n they luv each other so much(i assume too) smpai dy saggup pegi jb nk jumpa gf dy tuh, n siap jumpa parent dy...haish...n sy pnah tanye dy, wats d diff btween me n his gf, n he said a lot of of diff, bt dun want to compare,,,ah mls nk igt agi,,bia la cmni agi bagoz,,hopefully dy da x cntct...n im nt too..bnde nih menyebbkn sy berase sgt2 pnat arini,,btmbah2 dgn multisim yg x jdi2 agi, ari ni klas pack n ngantok gle skrg! i juz hope i cn b more strong now...n im trying..n trying..n trying...

step by step..

lesson of d day :::

a) my driving lesson ::::msk kali ni da 2 kali aku bwk kete kt highway dr s.alam ke bangi n ari ni dr bangi ke s.alam...ari ni mcm scary sket sbb kt federal cm byk kete...my papa thought me a few lesson dat i must keep in my mind n one of it, "if nk slamat, bwk kete gne lane tgh, pas2 nk centre kn kete x nk bg dy nmpk mcm huyung-hayang, tgk hujung kete kt lmpu belah kanan tuh msti kne ngan line kanan tuh, kete ni(my papa nye kete aka camry) da la sensitif sket if pusing sket je stereng msti terbelok gk.tgk kete dpan tuh, centre je kn..da lame2 nnti nadira ok la tuh."..n d lgi..."kt selekoh tuh bnti kn kete yer sng nk belok, x d mkn lane org..sswaikn diri ngan kelajuan yg sswai..jgn tlmpau laju n jgn tlmpau perlahan.." naseb baek d papa..he's calm...tdi hampir2  tlggr gk kowt...aish..i need more lesson!

b)precaution 2ward others:::: he appear juz 4 a few days! cm tah pape la plak kn..x pe..saba je la..jgn la pecaye sgt kt pe org ckp...pecaye myb dlm 60% je ke kn2?? aish..

abt them..

yesterday, bkak pose ngan 1 of my fren.....dy dtg dr jaoh tuh...dr banting, klang semate2 nk bkak pose bersame2 sy...da la naek moto..terima kasih yer 'pakcik'...act kteorg da lame x jumpe, since dr keje kt SIC arituh..bkak pose dkat2 ngan umah sy je..hihihi...k, recently, d kwn lame sy cntct sy blik...kwn keje tym mcd...mcm agk terharu gk la...sbb kteorg pna gado awl thn ni...i tot he would never cntct me back, sbb sy da byk saketkn ati dy...(dunno y i do dat, tho i hv a crush on him)..huuu..afte kteorg gado awl thn ni, slalu gk la usha2 pg ms dy...he's got a gf..still, he said to me recently, dy x nk kteorg lost cntct, coz knal ngan care baek, so hope ending pown care baek..hurmmmm i respect him bcoz even dy nieh tlmpau bersosial, still dy taw cmne nk jage ati org laen...n dy sgt2 x kesa if gf dy sexy ke x, jht ke x...he said it doesnt matter bcoz yg penting hati..n dy kte agi,mn taw la kn if dat gurl baek bole uba dy jadi baek..dats y dy x kesa..kn bagoz if rmai laki berpikiran mcm ni...sy ters sebak skjap ngan statement dy yg dy x kesah abt gf dy..(bcoz d 1 guy ckp i juz tooooo nice for him, so x sswai..bodo x?)huuuu slalunye, from wat i c, all his gf cm same type jerh:sexy tahap gaban, sosial gila mampos..n im totaly opposite wit all his previous gf...at 1st cm doubt gk yg dy pna admit dy ske sy, then i do silly things toward him, samekn dy ngan my ex yg poyo tuh(bak kte dy) , n he said he realy hurts at d moment when i said he juz as same as my ex...so tuh la yg mnybbkn pergaduhan kteorg awl thn ni...haish, i think im cold hearted kowt at dat tym...last2, he said he's afraid dat he will ruin my future...haish..i realy lyk him act...since sy masok matrix(lpas benti keje mcd) kteorg flirt sekali-sekale then mesti gado, then msti x cntct da smpai la d 1 ms yg dy akn cntct blik...bnde nieh berulng2 smpai la skrg..i hope skrg kteorg x kn jdi cm dlu, i mean gado sbb bnde bodo, still cntct till 4ever as fren...many things happen btween us tym keje kt mcd mmbwatkn sy susa nk lpekn dy..i will 4get abt him if he do sumthing dat i totaly hate..he said to me, plz 4get abt d past bcoz my past always keep playing in my mind..he cn mke me melt u knwt(huk3)..teringin nk tgk dy being a dj at his workplace..realy mish him..ble la kte bole jumpe kn arol?huuu

to u..yes u!

to my klasmate who i just bitching abt...sori kay...purpose sy tulis previous post juz nk btaw awk rmai x ske dgn care awk cmni...n ble sy bce blog awk yg awk x puas ati kt certain org tuh, sy mmg x bitaw kt kwn2 sy sbb sy x nk bnde ni jdi worst...sy pown x taw dr mn dyorg taw..dgr kate dr bdak laki klas kte..itu menunjukkan almost 1 klas kowt bce blog awk.. i knw x d sape yg perfect n myb being outspoken tuh la perangai awk yg sebenar..im realy proud of u sbb dpt jdi diri senirik kt dpan mate smorg...bt sumtym kte kne la pndai gk control our natural behaviour..sy taw awk mmg seorg yg sgt outspoken yg hebat...no 1 doubt abt it..bt d certain things baek kte juz ckp straight to d point kt org yg kte x puas ati...if awk takowt awk nanges, itu menunjukkan awk perempuan kn? kte same2 perempuan, 4 me it doesnt matter at all..bole ckp elok2 kn?try discuss..i.allah la org tuh bole berubah...im not perfect too bt im speak thru wat i see..it hurts ble smorg x ske kte n sy pna rse bnde tuh..sgt2 saket...then now, i learn from it..d certain org bole terima kte berperangai begitu...d certain org x bole terima..thanx sbb bce post sy gk...n sy x d niat nk bwatkn awk jaoh dr kteorg...kteorg 1 klas lgsong x kesa..bt plz...if u hv anything yg x bole terima psl kteorg 1 klas, do tell us kay?so u wont feel as d outsider..n x best la terase2 cmni kn?evry1 had their own problem bt dat dosnt mean we hv to tell d whole world kn? ^_^ sori again if my previous post menyaketkn hati awk..im juz an ordinary human who lyk to learn from wat i c evryday...n try to improve myself whenever i need to... ^_^

nescafe 2-in-1..hehehehe

1st thing 1st, i want to bitch abt a few ppl who i think deserve these bitches word..hehehehe even though cm x d kene mengena ngan diri sy sgt, tp if korg terbce bnde nieh n korg rse mcm sy mem'bitch' korg, plz DO tell me kay.. =p..mle2 psl d sorg mamat nieh..sy pna tulis psl dy on my previous post. recently, sy dpt taw rpe2nye his current gf is his fren ex-gf! OMG ok! loser gle...da 2 kali dy amek ex-gf kwn2 dy....n dgr cte, kwn dy tuh mmg da x bckp ngan dy da...loser gile kn mamat tuh?nmpk sgt dy x reti nk kwn agi rapat ngan gurl...hahahahahahahahahahaha (gila jht gelak)..skrg ni cte ke-2 plak, recently gk sy g jumpe kwn laki sy yg da lame gle x jumpe n pna rapat 1 mase dlu kt bangi gk la..dy bwk gf dy..n sy x berape ske la gf dy..not frenly at all...i dunno la if kwn sy tuh pnah cte pape yg 'x best' psl sy kt gf dy mmbwatkn dy lyn sy cmtuh...then dy cm nk menunjuk2 dat kwn sy tuh adlah bf terchenta dy...so what??mcm la sy nk rmpas bf dy...rse cm org bodo pown d gk g jumpe dyorg tym tuh..isk..mken menyampah lak tgk gmba dy kt 1 pusat interaksi internet nieh...isk..k d last cte, ade la sorg minah ni kn, dy bru je masok klas kteorg dis sem....pas2 ske2 dy je nk kutuk2 kwn2 sy kt blog dy...x d sape yg perfect n x salah kn if minah ni ckp straight to d point kt kwn2 sy ape yg dy x puas ati ngan dyorg...dr tulis kt blog, org bole assume sape yg dy kutuk2, pas2 rmai lak yg bce, kn da memalukan org laen..laen la klaw blog minah tuh x d rmai sgt org bce...mcm tah pape la kn?cbe dy ltakkn diri dy kt tmpat kwn2 sy..ape perasaan dy ble dy dpt taw d org buruk2kn dy kt rmai org?ni la salah 1 cth org yg x pnah pikir perasaan org laen utk mmbwat sesuatu...islam suro kte menjage hubungan sesame manusie...tp minah ni mcm x reti je nk jge hubungan sesame manusie...alamatnye, susa la nnti org nk berkomunikasi ngan dy mmndgkn org da taw dy cmne..taw la pndai, tp jgn la tlmpau menggunakan ke'pandai'an anda...aish...k la tuh je la bitching nye...

now, abt my own self..x taw la nape kn, rse cm maken lame maken rs cm x d perasaan lgsong..rse cm mls nk bckp,mls nk bcmpur ngan org,mls nk jge ati org sgt, n mls nk amek taw sgt pe yg org pkir...rse cm patung pown d gk...prefer diam dr bwat pape..lately ni gk, sy telah melyn 'pakcik' ngan mcm x d perasaan..ble rse cm nk lyn, bru mssg...if x, mls nk reply mssg dy...cm terok x bunyik dy??? huuu sorii 'pakcik'..cm x rse pape pown...hurm....x ske la situation cmni senarnye.nnti kn, ble da lame2 n rse cm nk bckp ngan org laen rse awkward lak..aish...

my hero!

hye there...arini da msok 5 ari pose...rugi btol da 2 mlm x dpt bwat terawih..klas nye psl..x pe la...nk wat cmne kn... rabu pown same klas mlm myb x dpt bwat solat terawih..hurm...btw i want to tell u tym 1st day pose tym d klas, damn tired dat day!rse cm nk pengsan je.. (naseb baek la dy kasi blik smpai pkul 7)huk3..hurm..ari ni mmg terse sgt pnat...dunno la rabu ni cmne plak...msti agi pnat...blaja pown bkan masok pown...ngan test dgital tdi..x bce lgsong!huuu...mmg pnat la sem ni..btw minggu bru2 ni blik umah..almklumla 1st week pose...jdi kelaziman bkak pose 1 family 1st pday pose..sgt seronok!im realy pity wit my dad...bkannye sy pakse ayah sy blikn kete, bt im juz asking him to buy me a car...if dy bole...then dy kte,nnti papa da dpt keje papa belikn k...huuu harapkn d only bisnes dat he had rite now mmg x kn kemane...he's working realy hard since dy bnti keje arituh...my dad da la saket jantung n im realy worried wit him..if he's working too hard, he's might get ill..n im afraid...ya Allah, smoga Kau murahkan rezeki keluarga kami...mmg rse cm nk menanges ble pkir2 blik abt my family...had so many problem..esp financial problem...ngan pekerja2 my dad yg slalu mcm x crius keje...dyorg x taw ke my dad byk kluarkn duet sbb nk naek kn bisnes nieh?? smpai dy sggup kluarkn duet simpanan dy tok cover yg laen...dat's y i dun want to get in to bisnes world... n ble ketorg blik umah, dy mcm hepi sgt...dy ske ble smorg d kt umah(ye la parent mn yg x ske kn?) bt our family mmg jrg2 d kt umah sbb smorg bz ngan lyf masing...papa,i really2222 luv u!

one fine day.. ~~

today have been d busiest day ever! x taw la ape yg bz nye tp yg pasti arini kepenatan sket..huu strt dr pgi2,d koko...amek family in islam..u knw wat...x sangke btol i amek koko tuh sbb..i x pna tpikir pown nk kawen..agi2 tym x d bf ni kn.heheheh...yg bwat x pcaye nye tym ustaz tuh suro bg pndgn pe yg kte phm ttg pertunangan, mksd kawen n ciri2 bakal suami...huuuu im speechless on dat tym! hahaha...x pna pkir ngan agi mndlm kowt bab2 tuh...cm x caye je i amek bnd tuh..bt bwat mke bodo sbb nk dpt a nye psl kn....hurm..then g tgk klasmate laki maen petanque...huuu hebat gk dyorg maen...dpt no 4 tuh fke!sy sgt berbangge ngan dyorg...then, arini naek moto dlm uitm...1st tym kowt...mle2 g koko tdi ngan ba..ba bwk moto..huu bestnye..pas kteorg tgk bdak laki maen petanque jap, kteorg g mkn kek secret recipe...huuu then g tmpat petanque blik tp ba teros balik sbb dy nk kua ngan kwn dy lak...then kt sane klasmate pompuan yg tggl me n yana je...yg laen sme g kilang cokelat..then yana plak yg bwk moto hihihi hurm...sbnarnye plan arini nk g shopping kt stadium ngan yana..metrojaya bwat warehouse sale...disbbkn x d knderaan yg tetap, atif yg sgt baek hati tlh meng'offer'kn diri tok bwk kteorg g sane mmndgkn dy sgt bosan at dat tym...(sbb dy pemaen smpanan petanque n dy x taw nk wat pe..hehehe) then me yana atif g la stadium...cm x best sgt sbb x byk sgt brg kt sane..da la jeans x d my size!sme size bsar2 je..huuu cdiyh2..bt i beli h.bag! kaler2 biru...lawa...brand x igt..sort of like kulit n d price(d most interesting part) : from 120 dpt 60! wuuuuu... sgt berbangge dgn diri ini sbb 1st tym kowt beli bag cm2 senirik2 dan sy sgt ske! n alhamdulillah la sy da baek dmm..tuh menyebbakan mood shopping sy mken btmbah2! hehehe...yana plak beli notebook je..isk2..then kteorg g mkn kt burger king lak..me n yana blanje atif dsbbkn dy da pnat2 ikt kteorg,cm ksian lak...hehehe..then balik umah tgk2 housemate sme da blik..n dba pown da blik!da baek dr dmm n blik dr kuarantin!wah2...kteorg pown mkn la cokelat berjemaah...then da mkn2 tuh smorg tdo tym2 dkat nk maghrib...x senonoh tol smorg nieh heheheheh...well...ni sedikit gmba yer....sila la lihat hiihihi (lpe plak kteorg bru terigt nk tgkp2 gmba tym mkn kt bk huk2):::

yana ngan atif lpas kyg mkn..

me n yana mke ske dpt jln2 at last..hihihi

 we luv u bk..muah2!

hectic weeks..

skrg ni sy tgh dmam...da lame x dmm n x pnah rse seterok ni sjak da bsar huuu..kepale rse pusing2 je...hurm myb pnat sgt kowt coz klas isnin selase rabu straight dr pgi smpai 10 mlm..aish..pnat sgguh..then naseb baek la kames cuti..then ari jumaat pown bole tahan la..hurm..abt dis week, mmg ari isnin selase rabu tuh mmg pnat gle la...blik2 dr klas siapkn pape keje yg patot then bru tdo..then ari kames arituh, sy igt kn bole la relax2,bt keadaan x mengizinkn huuuu...hurm, kakak sy dtg cni ajk kuar ptg tuh..ksian dy d masalah..actually, sy igt kames tuh nk study calculus n tdo2 coz bsok nye d test math...bt x pe la sy x kesa..sy agi syg kakak sy dr segale2 nye huuu..hurm then mlm tuh plak sy pgi jumpe kwn dy tuh..blik dlm pkul 12 mlm..aish..mmg pnat..then blik2 study sket pas2 dlm pkul 1 lbey bru tdo...jumaat lak,sy punye la mengharap x d test calculus,sbb x study sgt pown..rpe2nye ade huuuuuu btmbah2 la saket kepale sy...da la d msk topik yg dy aja tym kteorg ponteng arituh..so mmg x bwat la soklan tuh huuuuuuu balik2 da strt pening2 pale..tp sy gagahkn lgi sbb byk keje x siap agi nieh..agi2 lab report huu.then bwat lab report sket pas2 dlm pkul 1 lbey gk tdo..sab2 d modul ppkp..wajib pegi..btolak awal la dr umah..aish..pgi tuh tekak mmg da rse laen mcm n da strt batok2 sket..then ptg tuh bru terse bdn panas..hurm..mmg x mkn sgt sab2..sbb mmg x d selera sgt..tp dmm2 pown kuar gk ngan hsemate yana..heheheheh mlm kteorg g tgk cte setem ngan azri as our driver...best gle cte dy bt sdiyh x dpt glak kuat2 sbb saket tkak..huuuuu then blik2 g mkn jap kt pakli ngan bdak laki klas kteorg yg laen, pas2 balik smpai umah dlm pkul 2 lbey..pas2 teros tdo coz mmg x tahan pening+ngantok..huuu hurm sy bpikir dgn kls yg 3 ari straight dr pgi smpai mlm ni,mmpukah sy bertahan smpai akhir sem?bdan sy mengatakn sgt penat...tp akal sy berkata kamu msti bole punye...hurm...nieh pown tgh dmm n tgh try nk siapkn lab report yg kne anta bsok..btmbah2 pening la lgi..bg la kekuatan pdaku Allah..amin..

seminit bersama sy..hehehe

sy x berape phm la ngan org2 kt dunie nie..nape org ske pndg rendah kt org laen??sbb dyorg rse diri dyorg hebat?sbb dyorg rse org tuh bodo sgt smpai dyorg pkir x lyk utk 'org bodo' itu berkawan dan mmbuat keje ngan dyorg?sye btol2 x phm dan sy amat bnci kt org yg ske pndag rendah kt org laen...sme makhluk yg d kt dunie nieh Allah ciptakan ade kebaikkan ade keburukkan nye juge..kte sebagai khalifah Allah seharusnye membimbing org2 yg perlu dibimbing ke arah yg sepatutnye dgn care yg bole diterima oleh org laen..bkan dgn care dihina atau pown kasar..klaw kte cbe membimbing org itu dgn care yg salah, org yg mahu dibimbing tuh akn lgi rse terhina dan tidak bersemgt..dan dy agi rse cm x berbaloi utk dy hidup..itukn da bdose if kte bwat cm2 kt org?kn? kte pown x bole beraggapan buruk dan x bole tego seseorg dgn ayat yg agk kasar..itu juga bole mengguris hati dan perasaan seseorg kn? kenape ade sesetgh manusia susah nk menjaga perasaan org yg laen?kenapa perlu org mmndg rendah kt org yg x berape 'hebat' berbandingya?sy btol2 tidak mengerti benda ini,sejak berzaman lagi..dn sy hanya mengaggap itu mmg lah perangai dy,dan dgn itu mmbwatkn dy tidak sedar, dgn care layanan bgitu mmbwatkn org rse dy dipndg rendah oleh org yg 'hebat' tdi..tidak adil  kn?dan sy amat pelik lgi, nape sy byk bjumpa dgn org2 cmni?ataupon ini adlah hanya perasaan sy?klaw ye pown, smpai ble sy bole tahan perasaan sy nieh?sy rse cm diperendah2kn..adakah perlu sy berunding dgn mereka,jadi sy tidak tlmpau mmndam perasaan ini?perasaan ini mmbwatkn sy merasa seolah2 sy ni seorg yg tidak berapa berguna di mata dyorg..hurm...ape yg perlu sy bwat?sy asek merungut kt kwn2 sy, dan sy taw becerita ttg keburukkn org laen adlah amat berdosa..tp apkah daya sy??itu je yg mmpu sy bwat utk mlpeaskn geram dan marah sy..perasaan ini mmbwatkn sy tiada konfiden utk bersosial dgn org laen..dan sy tidak suka perubahan diri ni..tp sy x bole nk bwat apa2..rse mcm nk nanges gk kdg2...aish..semoga Allah sentiasa menguatkan semangat sy utk teros bertahan..amin.. ^_^

OuR pLan!!

me n my luvly fren,farah hani ad plan nk wat 2 big projek ble dy blik dr indon nnti!

1)jln2 crik mkn === pas2 kteorg nk post kt blog...recommen kt org..skrg ni kteorg try nk kumpul duet utk melaksanakan projek itu..heeeee.......

2) jogging! ========== utk bwat dy balance so nnti berat kteorg x d la btmbah kn, kteorg hv to jog! 

well, thanx farah for cheer me up...x saba2 ngan plan itu! heeeee 

thanx fren..muah2!

SPEECHLESS!

KEBENCIAN TAHAP MAKXIMUM!U DO A GREAT JOB MAN! WELL DONE! U MKE ME HATE U EVEN MORE!N IM NOT TOOOOO HOPING 4 U KAY!JGN NK PERASAN! N U MMG MCM **** GREAT JOB!!I WANT TO TELL EVRY1 SO,PDN LA MKE OK! BODO

Juz go away je la..shuhhh

today is his bday..n as usual im nt forgetting to wish him..its d most difficult thing to do for me since he had changed his number..bt its okay,i juz tot 4 wishing only...then in d evening,he reply my message,asking who is dis..at 1st im juz saying its nobody..i dunno wat im thinking abt, d truth is out, by telling him who is me actually...then from thre he strt asking many question..a qusetion dat we may think he still single n hoping im still missing him..i knw d fact dat he's already got a gf..afte i told him y i still missing him, he ask again

"is dat all y u still missing me?"

i dun knw wat to asnwer else bcoz im clueless...then im replying

"u nk dgr pe dr i senarnye?"

he replied "nad, i da d gf.."

cm tah pape..huu then i said "i already knew it n i juz want to hear it from u..n pe yg i answer sme tdi mmg dun meant anything to u kn?thanx 4 forcing me to tell d truth"

we stop there..

it's my fault too,coz strt messagging him..n im hurt..its realy my fault..bcoz im strt it 1st..kn sng if he juz ckp awl2 dy da d gf..rite??i think, he laugh at me bcoz of my stupidity..myb i dsrve it..huuummmmmmmm

then, a few hours later, he call me,dgn alasan sng nk xplain..hurm...in d fone he alwayz keep pushing me to answer whether im still luv him or hate him...i said 'nape nk taw?if u taw pown bkan bole ubah pape pown kn?"..then dy asek pakse2 smpai mcm nk mrh..i said "yes i still do luv u..so? " then he said "nad, u dserve a btter person, i jht nad..u still hoping ke nad?" "4 d tym being, i do still, bt u kn da d gf, so wat pe i nk hoping agi..u ngan lyf u, i ngan lyf i..so kte da mve on ngan lyf masing2, x pe la..lame2 nnti i ok la..."..then dy asek ckp yg dy syg ngan gf...so??hahah...kamu igt sy akn try begging u to leave her?no way okay..she's a gurl, either am i..so i taw la cmne perasaan ble d org ke-3..(sbb pna kne kowt huu)..then dy asek ckp bnde yg sy x ske..dy taw sy x ske bt he still, urgh..rse cm nk sepak je kn...pas2 ble sy kte sy x ske, dy kte nape nk crius sgt nieh?bodo ke ape kn?pas2 sy kte la sy x ske org mke fun wit bnde yg mmg sy da x ske..urgh..pas2 dy ckp psl kawen la...come on la man! tuh sme ktntuan Allah kowt..care dy ckp tuh mcm la dy nk mnx sy tggu dy kn? bole bla je la..ah, n 1 more thing, dy d ckp jgn bitaw sesape pe yg kami ckp tym tuh...huuu so wat,lyk i do care rite?he thinks im juz tooo gud 4 him..bnci nye!!!! then dy teros ckp bnde yg sy x ske, i hang up teroz..sy sgt terse dgn sme kte2 dy...guyz sme nye same je kn skrg...guys sng nk crik gurl yg dyorg ske bt gurl, susa nk cruk guys yg bole understand dyorg..haish..

p/s:oppss, i da ter-post kt blog la pe yg kte dscuss mlm tdi..so da rmai org taw,cmne nieh??hehehe (he will nt read my post..he doesnt even knw dat i hv a blog!hahaha)

thought of 2day..

im wondering,does ppl hate a gurl who is realy outspoken?tego2 org bile dy rse cm org tuh d bwat sumthing yg merimaskn dy(bila melibtkn diri dy n dy bkan lah seorg yg bz body..huu)is it wrong to tell them u dun lyk d way they treat u? is it wrong to voice out my opinion abt sumthing, which cn build a kntroversi bt dun hv any intention to do it?hurm...wat type of ppl they realy luv to b fren wit? a person who juz being quite in d class,n juz open their mouth whenever they want to?or a person who lyk to mke a havoc in a class n annoying?or either a person who seems so nice to us,till we cnnt c n believe these type of person cn create a big chaos in d class w/out us realise it?huuu... is it me or them??

uitm di hatiku

its been 2 weeks since 3rd sem...huuu permulaan yg x berape keseronokkan....huuuuu..it seems lyk i cnt suite very well wit dis new environment...n i cant really idntify wat its main causes..huuu..2day yana my housemate hv been asking y im soo not in d mood lately..n being so quiet..i try to fit wit them bt d more i had tried, d moodless i bcame..wat else cn i do to get back my mood..its not my housemate,it juz me..hurm..then, dis 2 weeks, d cct 1 repeaters try to rearrange their time table bcoz d current time table got clashed wit so many subject for most of us..so d environment bcome more stress than ever! i've got 2 classes on night..ini menmbahkan lgi kesusahan kerna sy pergi klas sorg2 menuggu bas yg tidak berape effisyen..n balik pown sorg..wuuu...tensi kn?tp x pe,utk mu uitm sy sggup bwat ape shj!hahaha

hello third sem!

hurm..yesterday da pass test jpj! wuhuu sgt berbangge dgn diri ini walaupun pelbagai badai yg melanda(cewah) hahaha...hurm bt btol la gk...mcm2 happen smpai rse cm x nk blaja kete da..bt alhamdulillah wit 1 try, i pass! huuuuu thanx to cekgu kete sy yg byk bg lecture menaikkan semgt sy..huuu dy mmg sswai jdi cekgu kete...n bole gk jd cekgu kaunseling..hek2...n mmg rmai x caye sy da pas ngan 1 percubaan shj..huu even my parent pown...huuu tp x pe..ni sme rezeki...amin...hurm...tdi g settlkn psl umah sewa..beli sme brg yg perlu n teros pndah brg kat sane..huh damn tired ok! bsok balik sane balik..nieh btol2 balik n tdo kt sane sbb isnin da strt klas..huu bosannye..da la x abes susun jadual agi nieh...aish...mcm org gila ke apa...haa...since i already got license, im asking my dad 2 buy me a new car!so sng sket nk g klas..n still dlm pertimbgn tp x taw la ble...huuu hopefuly dpt...hehehehe...(bkan g klas je, g jln2 pown 1 of main purpose gk..hee=p) n recently, dpt taw 1 of my ______ already got ______ huuu..damn ok! sng2 je dy dpt..aish...jdi laki sng je...sng je nk jdikn mn2 pompuan gf dyorg..aish....last2 kte yg sengsare..uhuk2...bodo btol punya ______ huuuu...im nt jelez, bt..ntah..hahaha...gudbye to home, hello uitm! hahah (sounds lyk i will not back home till 4ever) =p

.::keserabutan + ke'best'an::.

hye there! d holidays nearly come to an end...n abt agi 2 mggu klas strt (sob2)...n my head r very serabut! huuu ye la jadual klas x susun agi...n x bole susun..it its bcoz byk tym table bertindih antare subjek..huuu x taw nk susun cmne...kind of worried gk sbb krg if mcm berat sgt takowt x ley bwk in d future..n if tersalah drop kos takowt dy d effect kt sem2 dpan n lgi kritikal effectnye tuh! huu if bole nk avoid segala kekusutan yg akan mlnda in d future! (ceyh2)..hahah..tp mmg bnde nie la masalah bsar skrg...kne la tanye Pn Bibi cmne tym da strt sem nnti..mmg rse cm down n nk nanges gle coz disbbkn d fail subjek, jadual cm bngong je...hopefuly i will not bcome a 'bengong' person sumday!hak2...in d mean tym, my weekend has been d busiest weekend ever tym cuti sem nieh..hehehe..sy keje kt SIC (Sepang International Cct) as waitress under Pan Pacific hotel...org pan pac pnjam bdak2 uitm so apply la keje kt c2 disbbkn sy sgt gilakan racing car yg lawa2,so dis is d only chance 4 me to see it in live for free! hak2...(x mmpu nk beli tiket coz mahal gle ok!) ah 4got to mention, d event is GT Japan n sy jage kt company Aston Martin kt Paddock 1 (d org kate kete2 aston martin diminati oleh james bond!)..huk2..kind of excited at 1st tgk kete2 lawa blumbe2 dpan mate!punye la hope at least dpt la pgg kete tu ke,rpe2nye hanyelah sekadar harapan shj hehehehe..bt at d last minit, dpt gk tgkp gmba ngan racing car!tggl 1 kete je yg x simpan agi pe agi grab a pic la! hehehehe..btw its a nice xperience..dpt knal rmai kwn bru..pas2 dpt rse cmne perasaaan confront ngan org2 international mcm org2 mat salleh, sri lanka, japanese,rusian etc..n of coz d gk malay n chinese...n d models n d drivers! (sounds kewl kn??) =p..n dgr kate gaji kteorg x best sgt (dpt lmbat,sket) tp x pe la at least 1 of my wishes had came true!n sgt2 gumbira! dpt jln2 kt pit,tgk org tuka tyr tym race..ah n d safety car pown nt bad gk!nismo, volkswagen etc..gle kewl ok!hahaha..dis xperience is 1 of my unforgettable moment in my entire lyf!here r some pic yg smpt dtgkp.. peace yo! ^_^

            afte 1st day keje

 1st day : jln2 kt pit n dis is d safety car ok!

 2nd day:half of my new members (jan nmpk half je huu)

2nd day: tym nk blik da at last bru dpt!

  

    1st day: afte da abes race,jln2 kt pit

    

n me! 1st tym pkai bju hotel hak3

uP n DoWn..hee

its funny when d karma hit us...i really nt sure whether d 'karma' thing really exist...d concept of karma 4 me is lyk a wheel of lyf...sumtym we r on d top,sumtym we at down..same goes to me...it is not im at d top neither at down at dis moment...im in d middle kowt..huu im at d top when im njoying myself with my frens and family and recently all my sisters and me went to  Genting(again!) to chill..bt im not really njoyed it bcoz i dun want to...rse cm x sdap ati...dun knw y..then d nex day after we back home, (11/6), my exams results comes up...huuu i really feel down at d tym when im checking my result...im struggle to fix back my pointer...alhamdullillah have an improvement bt still, hv fail in electronic subject! i've been thinking how's my lyf will b 4 d bcoming semester???can i catch it all up??? i bet i will b bz then ever in my entire lyf! duh...can i cope wit it?? n i think im d only failure in d class 4 dis subject....urgh...feel lyk want to cry bt dat tears dun want to fall down...my parent dun hv any reaction when dey heard i had failed 1 subject...i need their support bt, they sounds lyk really dissapointed wit me...wat else cn i do??? i try my best does they knw??? i try to fill my tym by studying the subject that i think i cnnot catch it up during classes..bt they dun knw abt it..they even say nothing! it make me feel more DOWN!i feel lyk im d stupidest among all of my klasmate...im glad i hv a fren lyk nadia n qin...they gave d supprt whenever i need it...really thanx to them...i don't knw to whom  i cn spread my regretness except them..huuuu luv u two muahx2...today i've been attended into driving class...d instructor said my driving today r bad compared wit d 1st tym im drive...huuu im juz an ordinary gurl who r try to fix back her lyf better than yesterday!huuu im too emotional ryt??hahaha.....daaaa

awkwardness!!

smalam (5/6) g kuar ngan kwn2 lame..kwn skola...huu kind of awkward gk la sbb da lame gle x jumpe dyorg...n x taw sgt pe bnde yg ckp...n im bcome so blur! x taw la nape lately ni jdi cmni...bak kate qin 'nape nad ttbe x ley fit in??' huuuu tah myb ddk umah abt a month by not contct sape2 pown (either mssg or call or on9)..if d pown mcm skjap2 je...huuu gle mcm dull ok! huuuu lame2 ok la kowt...here sum pic...windu nk ckp byk2 n glak2 gle2ngan dyorg tp smalam mcm x bole! huuu bt it was fun!

 

hepi tree frens..

                                                          

                                         mkn bsar kt kenny ngan amni n nadia(kazen nana)

n on 3 n 4 june, i've been attended a driving class! 1st tym drive kt c2 ngan cekgu tuh, dy kate 'wah da pndai drive! x ya pening2 nk aja la cmni' hehehe...i was lyk..wah a compliment! hehehehe 1st day dy da suro bwk g kt jln raya...agk cuak la mle2 bt lame2 it was ok...i jus cant cntrol stering n switch gear perfectly je...huuu then dy aja kt bukit..kind of advnturous!hak2...2nday day, blaja bwat parking n 3pointer...pas2 bwat bukit agi...bwat tige2 ni smpai lbam sorg2 huuu...sbb dy kate myb i cant ccntrate ble dy ade hehehe..agk la...n dat cekgu kte sy bwk kete mcm agk ganas...kat selekoh pown bwk laju huuuu...

E.M.P.T.Y

lately i've been xpecting sumthing 2 come back in my lyf bt i dunno wat it is...i log in into myspace, frenster,facebook..bt thre's nothing in it...i feel lyk thre's empty spaces,sumwhere dat i cannot search it bt i can felt it...huuu sounds sarcastic aren't I?? hurm...i try to feel d 'empty' feeling wit doing all fun things lyk hangout wit gurls....chatting wit my family...n so other things i wish i cn, juz 2 forget dat feeling..bt it wont go away...am i feeling lonely??? huuuu probably NOT bcoz i had such a wonderful family, craziest fren ever....is dis bcoz of my past???..nahhh...ah or mayb bcoz i juz stay at home watching tv all d tym????argh!! its frustration u knw....all i cn do is being patient,n take dis feeling calmly n praying to Allah to show me  wat is dat 'empty' spaces...huuuuuu... i wonder am i realy hv such a big ego as many guys told me??it sounds lyk it juz me want to win in any argument...is it me???? hurm.....however im glad dat i've succeed to escape from any lyf's drama dis holiday...i mean i cn b fully myself...originally ME! heeeeee...dis is bcoz sumtym when i try to socialized wit others, im nt fully me...i hv 2 b sum1 else 4 a while to mke them cmfrtable wit me...i knw if i been doing dat, it will harm myself bt it will give an advantage for me in a long-term..rite? hahaha...so dramatic...bt its lyf..i bet many of us do lyk dat too to be accpted on others lyf..rite?ppl who knws me well cn read my face either im hepi,angry or sad...ppl who dun knw think im such a snobby person on their first impression bcoz i rarely smile...or bcoz my face told it so..hahahah...biarla...i try my best to suit in dis hypocrit lyf and i hope sumday its worth...heee...!chaiyok!

3 'x d kt umah' day...

ari kames lpas(14/5) g genting ngan nadia n aimi! it's been a long tym i dun spent my own tym doing crazy things n have such a great tym! ye la,b4 dis asek ccntrate wit studies je..(struggle to fix back my pointer!) huuuu.....ble kte jerit2 kte mcm dpt lpaskn bnde2 yg kte pndam slame nie...things dat cannot b told to any1 coz it cn bring a bad effect...huk2....thanx to nadia n aimi! nadia is my klasmate n aimi is my skewlmate tym f4 n f5(pna gado bsa smpai x tego 2 thn huk2) n aimi pown skewlmate nadia tym f1 till f3...unique cicrcles rite??heheh...g naek bas..agak murah la if beli tiket pegi balik + theme park + cable car = rm42 per person! quite saving gk...mmndgkn sy da d annual card so byr for bas pegi balik + cable car je...heee...btolak dlm pkul 11.30am..blik pkul 5.30pm..mse2 yg d mmg x dibazirkn pown hii...byk amek gmba bt all of them kt camera nadia..

then, ari sabtu(16/5) is a teacher's day n im going out wit zal n teka g mid valley..(x d kene mengena ngan teacher's day kn???hahah) zal n teka my klasmate gk tym f4 n f5...da lme gle x jumpe dyorg...missing d old days whre we always discuss things happen in our lyf..lyk bitching ** hahahah...bcoz she had brought a lot of mess in our lyf...bt pape pown she still our gud fren (tym dolu2) n x taw la nape dy da jdi cmni..uhuk3...kteorg tgk cte angel's n demons...so many riddles in it..so kne pndai2 phm la if tgk cte nie..then afte dat kteorg lpak kt Oldtown kt bangi borak2...

yesterday(17/5) going to ceramah kpp kat amsa's bangi driving skewl(yeah x d lesen kete agi huu)gle bosan....naseb baek la penceramah tuh x d la mmbosankn sgt..ade la ttdo jap..now i feel reluctant to continue dis process of takig license bcoz mcm menakutkan je nk amek lesen kete nieh....huuuuuu

for mama...i luv u..

if u luv ur mum,u should see this...fynn jamal bersyair ngan pnoh emosi...my tears almost fall when 1st i tym see dis...sgt2 sediyh n touching...n dis gurl mmg pndai at bersyair..dy bwat senirik n dy byk bwat show kt kl...thanx to my sis sbb tunjukkn kt dis poem..huu..try search kt youtube if korg nk dgr byk abt her poem..njoy! =)

bile sem 2 da abes...pas2??

hye..meet again....skrg ni bru lpas abe exam part 2! wah sgt seronok! hik2...hurm...sem 2 byk abt feelings...myb happen sbb kte da knal hati each other...so..ble kte bwat sumthing kdg2 org sekeliling kte cpt ters....perasaan tuh sgt la x best..hurm....da la sem dpan ddk ngan klasmate2 ku terchenta kt umah flat..uhuk3.......ye la...ntah...huu..hurm..ari2 b4 ari jumaat(ari packing brg nk bkik umah teros) tdo kt bilik yana...kteorg lpak2(yana smpai x jd study) borak2 dlm pkul 10 lbey smpai la pkul 2 lbey...lame gle tuh..huuu then from thre byk la taw psl rahsie2 org..hehehhe(bt its nt a gossip kay..juz luahan hati yg x berape puas ati ngan org2)...hurm...n...lately i juz knw a man dat i had a crushed on da d gf...gle rse mcm di[ermaenkn pown d gk...mn x nye sblm nie kteorg mcm slalu mssg(myb tuh care dy approach org kowt..) ntah la....huuuu all i can do is saba je la...pe agi yg bole dibwat...n skrg da kt umah mati kbosanan gle! tdo mkn tgk tv...tuh je keje ttp yg bole dibwat skrg huk2......tdo smpai pening kepale kowt....ayah sy g indon g bcuti sorg2...jelez sungguh ok....huk2....cuti nieh plan mcm nk g amek lesen...i.allah if ade rezeki ade la tuh...(mcm nenek bunyik nya hik3)...x saba nk dpt duet nk g jhr jmpe my bestiest ever!!wah.....k la daaaa

the biggest 'pervert' ever!!

i wanna write abt wat's in my mind rite now...im realy2 jelez wit ppl who had d happiest lyf ever! hv a cool family...cool bf...cool frens...wat im trying to say here is im realy thnkful wit ppl around me currently...i do realy appreciate them bcoz they r d only person who can understand me well (bt x d bf okay! =p)...im juz envy wit those ppl...huuu im not blaming a fate...mayb Allah want me to learn sumthing dat mayb i can't learn it from anonymous..huk2...bt sumtym i do realy think y i always met d wrong guy??? criusly i realy hate guy rite now...bcoz they juz bring a mess in my head...i jus hope i cn meet a guy who cn realy understand me well(da jumpe bt im not appreciating his absence)huuu...yeah im realy sounds lyk im desperate to meet my dream guy..(uhuk2) bt...i dunno..after wat 'a' done to me..im bcome a diffrent person...'a' realy give a big impact in my lyf...he thoght me how to appreciate lyf more by being rude 2ward me...he's d biggest mistake i've ever met..huu well nothing to regret abt bcoz its already happen...u knw y i hate him sooo much??? 1st of all, he kill's my feeling slowly by let me swallow all d pain dat he causes...he always trying to find my mistake in evry point...at 1st i cn accpt it,bt with d rational thinking, not all of it is my fault! it realy2 hurt u knw...by hearing d rudeness word ever from him,from d ppl we luv, it cn mke our heart bleed..rite?dat's wat i hv to swallow...he knw dat, n i blieve he will change bt my tot r wrong...he is d reason y i bcome such a mean person...he is d reason y i've bcome 'org yg da x d perasaan'...i realy hate dis kind of situation! i luv my old self...my heart full wit angry,full wit hate toward other ppl rite now...i want all dis feeling dissappear bt i dunno how...i cn c d effect of dis feeling..(scolding nwar,saketkn ati rmai org)...n i do it uncoincidencly...huuu realy2 hurt...btw, bru2 nieh bru je balas dndm kt 'a'..huuu i knw bedose bt..i feel satify by doing dat...uhuk2...'a' is such a big LOSER with his ke'poyo'an...n perasan hensem..!!n gatal n pervert! huk2....bodo nye laki....aaaaa!!! rse cm nk bunuh dy je if bole....huuuu tp x bole...huuu...hurm...

d stori starts with....

hey guys!!since im f4, i never reach into dis blogging thing anymore.. huuuu mayb during dat tym i hv found sumthing dat brings a lot of fun to spread my feelings...yeah dats me...cpt rse bosan wit d old things...then ble da jumpe new things yg lgi x best dr old things, gle2 punye crawl nk blik ke old things...n dat's wat happen in my lyf currently...same as to u my lvely blog site...huu kcian dy..huuu...well nothing much to 'bebel' abt bcoz rite now i hv an important things to do === solat maghrib lol! i hv to mention 1st dat i luv to blog abt lyf...abt my current environment huuu u knw wat, since dat 'thing' happen, im being more thankful and appreciate with wat i hv n trying not to damage myself again..well i'm trying to be a gurl who can stand in her own feet w/out depending on others...as im grown up, thre's too many obstacle i hv to face off, no matter im ready into it or not..n criusly most of the tym im not ready yet...all i cn do is just being patient, n mke my lyf goes on...i dun want my lyf to b stop at the middle of the path..d path dat i blieve will bring me sumwhere dat i cn b belong to...huuu hurm...mcm2 da blaku dat mke me being more matured in lyf...n also being matured in any decision i make...i hope i will b more strong to face any obstacle in d future..heheheh k daa!!