not dat dsperate la kn..

urm..ok skrg ni pkul 2.30 pagi...x ley tdo, myb sbb da tdo jap tdi...huu..my point here is, i hate wat is in my mind rite now, keep rewind d same thing...i feel lonely..i realy need a place to lay off..umah bangi mmg x bole la kn, mke my head bcome more serabut, umah s.alam? hah kem salam je la...x taw la nape lately rse cmni...i try nk bwang feeling ni jaoh2 dr idup, bt rite now, i cant, rse cm nk nanges...realy...sumtym i bcome moody easily, n i hate dat..mkin lme idup, mkin confuse ngan diri ni...i need sum1 to hug me n say"evrything will b ok nadirah, just wait ok?" i realy2 want dat situation rite now..i cant do this alone..*sigh*..lately ni gk, x taw nape ble nmpk dy je, rse mcm nk marah je...i knw bdose, bt, perasaan ni dtg secare ttbe, cmne nk bwat dy g jaoh2? i want to feel, how 2 b normal, tlg la bg mse tuh la skjap je pown jdi la..i really2 need it...pnat pretend dat evrything is ok, to mke a gud impression 2ward those whose seeing it..2ward those who already hurt my feeling..urgh...i feel sick+tired+moody==tension..knw wat, dlu2 when dis feeling came, dat person always calm me down..i mish dat situation..sumtyms, sy jdi cpt pelupe, cpt marah, pas2 ble da calm, i 4got wat im mad for..n hard to tell to sum1 y i mad for..can dis cause by hypertension? tension gle2 tahap gaban, byk masalah n pndam je, bole ke dy effect brain kte?ataupown ni adlh salah satu proses of growing up?kdg2 rse mcm mls nk mke new frens(old frens tells me dat im peramah hohoho), mcm x d perasaan terhadap pape pown d gk, ske bwat adek nanges(evryday gadow, hohoho), mls nk lyn org gk..its lyk i preffer to live in my own life, n dat life is at my own brain..pemalas...pnatnye...adoi...mercy plz..

result????

ok my bday da lpas..nothing special, bt i realy2 appreciate to those yg wish, thru fb, sms, card, phone call! huu yg plg2 terharu----nadia klasmate sy bwat bday kad senirik utk sy, cantik! thanx cyg!--my adek ltak present bwh bntal sy, n x sdar d present tuh smpai la dy kte d sumthing bwh bantal,huuu!--has bwat sort of multimedia kad kt fb!cantik jge!--thanx byk2!! wuuu...skrg pe y plg penting, result exam kuar pkul 10 mlm ni! wuuu mmg x logik tol la uitm ni, bwat result kuar mlm..agk cuak ye disitu...mn x nye, paper power ngan cct ari2 mcm pe je jwb...same ngan ntah..tp paper power plg terok la, ngan d sokln yg pkai jwb, mcm x taw pape!damn! hopefully x repeat, wuuuu pnat la repeat2 ni, nex sem pown berat je crdit hour...aiyo2...Ya Allah, mnx2 la result ok...fuh2..huuuu,,hurm since blik umah ni, mcm2 happen..tuh senarnye sy x ske sgt blik bangi..huuu its btter being alone rather than blik bangi, bt they r my family no matter wat happen, family comes first, so try la bwat bodo ngan pape yg blaku, tp kdg2 x tahan tlpas gk...taw la bdose, tp x taw da nk wat cmne..dr tahan je perasaan tuh, n bwat mke masam, ble da lpas, criusly rse lege sket, x d bwat mke masam2..hohohoho...im glad tym my bday, dpt gayut2 tpon ngan my deary qin...mish dy gle2! lame gk gayut, dkat nk 2 jam, kowt? (thanx 2 d free call!ahkz) byk kteorg share cte, abt each others life..talking to her is like talking to myself, n d advice cn mke me feel realy2 calm...she is like my twin, watver im going through, she's in d same situation,..wuuuuu...nk pelok2 n cium2 QIn gdik ni...wuuuu (nadirah, tlg cntrl diri yer,heh)..haha..my work at my dad office alredy done, so bole relax2 sket!yay! njoy! daaa~~~