the biggest 'pervert' ever!!

i wanna write abt wat's in my mind rite now...im realy2 jelez wit ppl who had d happiest lyf ever! hv a cool family...cool bf...cool frens...wat im trying to say here is im realy thnkful wit ppl around me currently...i do realy appreciate them bcoz they r d only person who can understand me well (bt x d bf okay! =p)...im juz envy wit those ppl...huuu im not blaming a fate...mayb Allah want me to learn sumthing dat mayb i can't learn it from anonymous..huk2...bt sumtym i do realy think y i always met d wrong guy??? criusly i realy hate guy rite now...bcoz they juz bring a mess in my head...i jus hope i cn meet a guy who cn realy understand me well(da jumpe bt im not appreciating his absence)huuu...yeah im realy sounds lyk im desperate to meet my dream guy..(uhuk2) bt...i dunno..after wat 'a' done to me..im bcome a diffrent person...'a' realy give a big impact in my lyf...he thoght me how to appreciate lyf more by being rude 2ward me...he's d biggest mistake i've ever met..huu well nothing to regret abt bcoz its already happen...u knw y i hate him sooo much??? 1st of all, he kill's my feeling slowly by let me swallow all d pain dat he causes...he always trying to find my mistake in evry point...at 1st i cn accpt it,bt with d rational thinking, not all of it is my fault! it realy2 hurt u knw...by hearing d rudeness word ever from him,from d ppl we luv, it cn mke our heart bleed..rite?dat's wat i hv to swallow...he knw dat, n i blieve he will change bt my tot r wrong...he is d reason y i bcome such a mean person...he is d reason y i've bcome 'org yg da x d perasaan'...i realy hate dis kind of situation! i luv my old self...my heart full wit angry,full wit hate toward other ppl rite now...i want all dis feeling dissappear bt i dunno how...i cn c d effect of dis feeling..(scolding nwar,saketkn ati rmai org)...n i do it uncoincidencly...huuu realy2 hurt...btw, bru2 nieh bru je balas dndm kt 'a'..huuu i knw bedose bt..i feel satify by doing dat...uhuk2...'a' is such a big LOSER with his ke'poyo'an...n perasan hensem..!!n gatal n pervert! huk2....bodo nye laki....aaaaa!!! rse cm nk bunuh dy je if bole....huuuu tp x bole...huuu...hurm...

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hey guys!!since im f4, i never reach into dis blogging thing anymore.. huuuu mayb during dat tym i hv found sumthing dat brings a lot of fun to spread my feelings...yeah dats me...cpt rse bosan wit d old things...then ble da jumpe new things yg lgi x best dr old things, gle2 punye crawl nk blik ke old things...n dat's wat happen in my lyf currently...same as to u my lvely blog site...huu kcian dy..huuu...well nothing much to 'bebel' abt bcoz rite now i hv an important things to do === solat maghrib lol! i hv to mention 1st dat i luv to blog abt lyf...abt my current environment huuu u knw wat, since dat 'thing' happen, im being more thankful and appreciate with wat i hv n trying not to damage myself again..well i'm trying to be a gurl who can stand in her own feet w/out depending on others...as im grown up, thre's too many obstacle i hv to face off, no matter im ready into it or not..n criusly most of the tym im not ready yet...all i cn do is just being patient, n mke my lyf goes on...i dun want my lyf to b stop at the middle of the path..d path dat i blieve will bring me sumwhere dat i cn b belong to...huuu hurm...mcm2 da blaku dat mke me being more matured in lyf...n also being matured in any decision i make...i hope i will b more strong to face any obstacle in d future..heheheh k daa!!