E.M.P.T.Y

lately i've been xpecting sumthing 2 come back in my lyf bt i dunno wat it is...i log in into myspace, frenster,facebook..bt thre's nothing in it...i feel lyk thre's empty spaces,sumwhere dat i cannot search it bt i can felt it...huuu sounds sarcastic aren't I?? hurm...i try to feel d 'empty' feeling wit doing all fun things lyk hangout wit gurls....chatting wit my family...n so other things i wish i cn, juz 2 forget dat feeling..bt it wont go away...am i feeling lonely??? huuuu probably NOT bcoz i had such a wonderful family, craziest fren ever....is dis bcoz of my past???..nahhh...ah or mayb bcoz i juz stay at home watching tv all d tym????argh!! its frustration u knw....all i cn do is being patient,n take dis feeling calmly n praying to Allah to show me  wat is dat 'empty' spaces...huuuuuu... i wonder am i realy hv such a big ego as many guys told me??it sounds lyk it juz me want to win in any argument...is it me???? hurm.....however im glad dat i've succeed to escape from any lyf's drama dis holiday...i mean i cn b fully myself...originally ME! heeeeee...dis is bcoz sumtym when i try to socialized wit others, im nt fully me...i hv 2 b sum1 else 4 a while to mke them cmfrtable wit me...i knw if i been doing dat, it will harm myself bt it will give an advantage for me in a long-term..rite? hahaha...so dramatic...bt its lyf..i bet many of us do lyk dat too to be accpted on others lyf..rite?ppl who knws me well cn read my face either im hepi,angry or sad...ppl who dun knw think im such a snobby person on their first impression bcoz i rarely smile...or bcoz my face told it so..hahahah...biarla...i try my best to suit in dis hypocrit lyf and i hope sumday its worth...heee...!chaiyok!

3 'x d kt umah' day...

ari kames lpas(14/5) g genting ngan nadia n aimi! it's been a long tym i dun spent my own tym doing crazy things n have such a great tym! ye la,b4 dis asek ccntrate wit studies je..(struggle to fix back my pointer!) huuuu.....ble kte jerit2 kte mcm dpt lpaskn bnde2 yg kte pndam slame nie...things dat cannot b told to any1 coz it cn bring a bad effect...huk2....thanx to nadia n aimi! nadia is my klasmate n aimi is my skewlmate tym f4 n f5(pna gado bsa smpai x tego 2 thn huk2) n aimi pown skewlmate nadia tym f1 till f3...unique cicrcles rite??heheh...g naek bas..agak murah la if beli tiket pegi balik + theme park + cable car = rm42 per person! quite saving gk...mmndgkn sy da d annual card so byr for bas pegi balik + cable car je...heee...btolak dlm pkul 11.30am..blik pkul 5.30pm..mse2 yg d mmg x dibazirkn pown hii...byk amek gmba bt all of them kt camera nadia..

then, ari sabtu(16/5) is a teacher's day n im going out wit zal n teka g mid valley..(x d kene mengena ngan teacher's day kn???hahah) zal n teka my klasmate gk tym f4 n f5...da lme gle x jumpe dyorg...missing d old days whre we always discuss things happen in our lyf..lyk bitching ** hahahah...bcoz she had brought a lot of mess in our lyf...bt pape pown she still our gud fren (tym dolu2) n x taw la nape dy da jdi cmni..uhuk3...kteorg tgk cte angel's n demons...so many riddles in it..so kne pndai2 phm la if tgk cte nie..then afte dat kteorg lpak kt Oldtown kt bangi borak2...

yesterday(17/5) going to ceramah kpp kat amsa's bangi driving skewl(yeah x d lesen kete agi huu)gle bosan....naseb baek la penceramah tuh x d la mmbosankn sgt..ade la ttdo jap..now i feel reluctant to continue dis process of takig license bcoz mcm menakutkan je nk amek lesen kete nieh....huuuuuu

for mama...i luv u..

if u luv ur mum,u should see this...fynn jamal bersyair ngan pnoh emosi...my tears almost fall when 1st i tym see dis...sgt2 sediyh n touching...n dis gurl mmg pndai at bersyair..dy bwat senirik n dy byk bwat show kt kl...thanx to my sis sbb tunjukkn kt dis poem..huu..try search kt youtube if korg nk dgr byk abt her poem..njoy! =)

bile sem 2 da abes...pas2??

hye..meet again....skrg ni bru lpas abe exam part 2! wah sgt seronok! hik2...hurm...sem 2 byk abt feelings...myb happen sbb kte da knal hati each other...so..ble kte bwat sumthing kdg2 org sekeliling kte cpt ters....perasaan tuh sgt la x best..hurm....da la sem dpan ddk ngan klasmate2 ku terchenta kt umah flat..uhuk3.......ye la...ntah...huu..hurm..ari2 b4 ari jumaat(ari packing brg nk bkik umah teros) tdo kt bilik yana...kteorg lpak2(yana smpai x jd study) borak2 dlm pkul 10 lbey smpai la pkul 2 lbey...lame gle tuh..huuu then from thre byk la taw psl rahsie2 org..hehehhe(bt its nt a gossip kay..juz luahan hati yg x berape puas ati ngan org2)...hurm...n...lately i juz knw a man dat i had a crushed on da d gf...gle rse mcm di[ermaenkn pown d gk...mn x nye sblm nie kteorg mcm slalu mssg(myb tuh care dy approach org kowt..) ntah la....huuuu all i can do is saba je la...pe agi yg bole dibwat...n skrg da kt umah mati kbosanan gle! tdo mkn tgk tv...tuh je keje ttp yg bole dibwat skrg huk2......tdo smpai pening kepale kowt....ayah sy g indon g bcuti sorg2...jelez sungguh ok....huk2....cuti nieh plan mcm nk g amek lesen...i.allah if ade rezeki ade la tuh...(mcm nenek bunyik nya hik3)...x saba nk dpt duet nk g jhr jmpe my bestiest ever!!wah.....k la daaaa